WE CHOSE POST TRAUMATIC GROWTH

My son was diagnosed with stage 4 Hodgkin's Lymphoma on my birthday July 22nd, 2014. When my son confronted the doctors about releasing him from the hospital he was bullied by their words. In front of my husband and I they asked my son if he was ever in a pool. Explaining how holding his breath under water was how it would feel for him to die of this cancer. As we walked out of the oncology office they informed us to get a hold of hospice and he would have about six months to live.

As my research began while my son slept, it became my mission to do all that was possible to try everything I could. I had a decision to make, I knew if I stayed in my head, he would be dead. For the first time in my life I questioned the doctors. I surrounded myself with people who believed in natural healing. We attended every conference possible. If my son was to weak to hold his glass or hold his fork, I held it for him. When he couldn't make it to the bathroom I would carry him.

When you see death it changes you. Many times I curled up next to him and felt he was not in his body. He was lifeless and his breath was ever so slight. I knew my small hesitations would hold us back. I never second guessed what we were doing. Fear triggers something in your being. Its your choice what direction you will go.

I remember this picture that was taken of my son and I. I remember wrapping my hands around his chest and praying for healing, I knew before it was confirmed that the news was going to change our lives. I knew our path would change but I never knew how this journey would shape us.

THE DAY JARED WAS WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER

I tell you this because whatever path you are on know you have a choice. Instead of feeling sorry this happened to us and instead of worrying everyday, we move on! When you conquer your biggest fear you become unstoppable. We have a greater appreciation for everything in life.

What is robbing you of living the life you want? Are you staying in your head? Maybe its a health goal? A trip you have never took? A job you never tried to go after? Why do you think that is? I will tell you what it is. Get out of your head! It wasn't until I shut my mind off to the doctors voices, the statistics of my sons survival and even making a choice to walk away from a dependable job to be with my son that we really lived.

We know that now. It wasn't easy but I would never be helping people with their health today if I hesitated. My son may not be here and I would have had to live with regrets of not pushing myself to post traumatic growth. We have one life friends, live it. Surround yourself with the people you want to be around. Don't listen to that brain of yours and feel with your heart. We all have it but many times life gets in the way. We think and analyze and process and then hesitate. Those hesitations will set you back from your destiny, the life you are truly meant to live.

Daily practices of meditations and journaling can uncover what you really need from you. We are so plugged in today. Lets face it how many minutes a day do you spend quiet within yourself? I challenge you to try that experiment. Our thoughts are altered by the noise around us. For me it took me to be sick and then my son to get cancer to realize what I know now. Getting out of my head was the best gift I could have given myself and my son.

I don't watch television or listen to the radio to much anymore. I choose to read and grow with my self development. I love to learn new things and chose not to put any limitations on the possibilities of our future. Post traumatic growth can be a beautiful thing!

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Below is a before and after picture of myself. I look back and realize I was scared to be who I really needed to be. Get out of your head and be whatever your dreams desire!

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